“Creativity takes courage” – Henri Mattisse
In posts like this, I always want to be as honest as I can because I know I’m not the only one feeling the way I am – even if it feels like it sometimes.
Earlier this week I typed out a post for today, and I felt good about it going up. But, as the week went on, and I was exploring other people’s blogs and Instagram pages, I suddenly felt like what I had written wasn’t good enough. I thought who would want to read it, and if they read it they probably would have thought it was stupid and boring.
Because I was thinking so much about how no one would like what I was planning on posting, I wasn’t going to put up anything for this Friday. However, I’m really trying to stay consistent with uploading and I wasn’t about to let insecurity get the best of me. It could be argued that I sort of let it get to me because I didn’t upload the one that I had originally planned. But I thought it was best to get this out because I know I’m not the only one who creates something, compares it to others, and suddenly thinks mine isn’t good enough anymore.
I love writing, creating, and posting things that I put a lot of time and energy into, but sometimes that isn’t enough. Looking through other people’s blogs that I love, mine started to look amateur and boring because I don’t have a super nice HD camera, or professional photographers taking my pictures, or expensive looking outfits or that my numbers are low in comparison to others. And if I think too much about how mine doesn’t look like theirs, everything that I’ve created and feel pride in start to diminish – which isn’t fair to me. I take time and pride in things I post just like any other blogger. I should be able to enjoy other people’s content and feel inspired by their's – most of the time I am – and that feeling just can’t be shaken sometimes and you have to ride it out. As soon as you get through the feelings of inadequacy, it’s important to come back and hit the ground running with intention and motivation in whatever it is that you do.
Your content may look different than others, and that’s okay. If everyone’s looked the same, where’s the fun in that? Numbers are numbers at the end of the day and don’t really matter in the grand scheme of things. And when I get in slumps like this, it’s very important to remember that.