No matter where it takes me, even if it breaks me, I’m unapologetically all in.
Like many people, I’m not good at New Year’s resolutions. I make them and abandon them a couple weeks later. That’s why going into 2018, I made goals instead rather than trying to change a bunch of things about myself and looking back at them I didn’t meet most of them. Because that’s okay. I met the important ones like aiming for and achieving straight As in college this year or taking care of myself better.
Something that I noticed was that people were using a word to outline their focus for the new year. I didn’t notice my word was “unapologetically” until about halfway through the year. It came from Kelsea Ballerini’s album that is the most meaningful and influential album in my life. I wrote more about that here so I won’t go into a lot of detail about it again. That’s how I tried to live my 2018 and let me tell you this year went quickly but also felt like there were 3 years in one. A lot happened. A lot of good. Some bad. Challenges, changes, and growth happened.
In comparison, 2018 was far better than 2017 ever was and I’m so grateful for that. I wanted to do another year in review that I did last year because it was fun to see everything I did within a year. This year was filled with a year of firsts, the unexpected, falling in love, anxiety, so many concerts, challenges – some I’m glad happened and some I wish hadn’t happened – but all in all more highs than lows this year. I could cry thinking about how much better this year was as compared to last even despite the low lows of this year.
And so another trip around the sun as almost finished and here are some of the things I did during that time:
J A N U A R Y:
The year started off just as normal as it had been before and continued that way throughout the whole month until the end of the month when I meet my boyfriend (not pictured).
F E B R U A R Y:
M A R C H:
A P R I L:
M A Y:
J U N E:
J U L Y:
The month of the good, the bad, and the ugly.
A U G U S T:
S E P T E M B E R:
The month where nothing really happens except I age a year.
O C T O B E R:
N O V E M B E R:
D E C E M B E R:
And this is our first New Year’s Eve together which involves lots of snacks, couch sitting, and watching Taylor Swift’s reputation Tour documentary on Netflix.
Above all, this year only reinforced what last year taught me: that I am strong and weak and that it is possible to be both – and that’s not always a bad thing. It was a year filled with love I never thought I would find and anxiety I never thought I would experience. I’m so grateful for this year and everyone that helped make it what it was. You can’t have an entire year with all good and no bad – it’s not realistic. With all the good that happened this year, I will accept the bad that happened. I’m so excited about what 2019 will bring me and I have a good feeling about it.
So, I will continue into the new year with a word to outline the next 12 months and coincidentally stick with the theme of having the word revolve around songs. 2018 was unapologetically. 2019 is life changes.
You wake up, ain’t nothing the same and life changes. You can’t stop it, just hop on the train and you never know what’s gonna happen, you make your plans and you hear God laughing
Finally, here’s to 2018 – I’m sad it’s leaving because it was one of my best and most memorable years even with all the hardships it brought me because the good by far outweighs the low lows. And here’s to 2019 – it has quite the year to compete with but I’m hopeful for its outcomes.